I hate being out of placed. I always look at my phone and pretend Im busy. But srsly,Im always alone. I cant blame my friends for making me feel it because in the first place,I shouldn’t be making them my world. Because they can make my life a living hell,if they won’t notice me.
Im always the 11th wheeler in the group.
Im the person who laughs with them though I sometimes don’t get the point.
The person whom they laugh at when I look like a frog at the stolen picture or as simple as a crazy idiot with the stolen shots.
The person who was publicly embarrassed.
The person who can feel his alone when you needed them the most. Where are you guys? Where are you when I needed you? Where are you when I needed someone? Where are you when I needed a power hug and a comfort? You’re there. But,the case was,you joined the class when I became another laughingstock. I was publicly embarrassed because you laughed at me..at my report.You never understand me. Never understand. It was a slap in the face guys. Because I expected for an apology but I heard nothing. Not a single “it’s ok Dex”. But do you know what’s the unexpected thing? Our classmates,whom I never thought of comforting me,came into action. They’re there. And you aren’t.
The person who chases after you. I’m always after the group. Why? Because Im afraid of being left out.
Im so depressed and disappointed guys. REALLY. Im the person who’s being left out in here. Im the one who goes out ALONE,takes my recess AND solve my problems ALONE.
You’re doing such favorites. Believe it or not. I can feel it Esesjeh. If you will to choose me and another member of this group,whom will you choose? Of course,the other one. Because I think among the group,Im the useless one.
Speaking of OP. I tried that many times guys. Want to hear some? First,you’re whispering to each others’ ears and I asked you what is it and you both replied,secret. It’s a secret. Why would I care about it if in the first place its not my business. So why bother? STUPID me. Next,that picture taking thing. I dunno why but I got so OP last Friday. -.-“
Im useless/not important. For once in my life,I wished my friends would text me or just simply remembers me even though they don’t need something. Please tell me when did you remember me. When? Is it when you texted me to load your mobile number? Is it when you want the assignment’s link?or is it when ypu ask for some answers or when you’re telling me that you’ll be copyinh my homework? When guys? When are you going to remember DEXIEL not because of her stupidity,but because you need her because she’s your friend.
Im disappointed to someone. Really. Because that someone left and avoided us. We never knew the reason but again she came back and the worst thing of all,we err I mean.. I expected her sorry. Pride? Is it because of it that’s why she cant say it? After all its her fault because she avoided us and shenever voiced out her problems. END OF STORY.
Tell me Im so dramatic. Im not asking for pity here. All I need is a fresh air to voice out all my problems and WordPress is a best way to express it. To my friends who read this,you can do whatever you want. Slap me hard,kick me,go away from me, go on and try because from now on,this day and forth, I swear to the river Styx that I wil do my best to keep a balance relationship between you and our classmates. It’s nice seeing myself smile because of you guys but it would be the best feeling ever if I can see someone comforting me when I cry.
They say you only realize a person’s worth if he’s gone and I hope it would be a wake-up call because we never knew,I might change.. and reasons might be left unsaid.